hopscotch and genuine conversation.

Lynzee Colclasure
Mar 31, 2015
3 min read

I spent most of my weekend in Long Beach, visiting wonderful friends and Sunday was by far the highlight of it. We played hopscotch, threw around a Frisbee and football, drank beer, talked…we enjoyed one another all day and it was glorious.

Krysta, a special human, who holds a special place in my heart, was kind enough to indulge me as I videotaped her answering: “what made you smile today?"

“Whistling into beer bottle… I smiled because my partner was naked in bed. I smiled because I got to sleep in… it’s Sunday, which is god’s day, uh, that means I don’t have to work. That means I get to sleep and eat and be a glutton and love it. I smiled because I had an argument and worked through it from A to Z and back to A and all the way through and that was really cool. I smiled because I drank champagne with my best friend and we’ve never drank champagne together. I smiled becaussseee……. (lovingly and inquisitively) I don’t know, ask questions, ask me questions, c’mon ask me a question.”

As I say “but that’s all I want to ask, all I want to know is what made you smile today, and you’ve given me a thousand reasons why. Are we good do you want to give one more?”

Krysta comes back: “I want to give all the reasons; I want to give it all!!! I smiled because I was able to hang out with four of my favorite people and have really deep, intellectual conversations… that in the grand scheme of things, society wise-all that shit, don’t matter but we come to conclusions, we own conclusions… um…we own space. And I think that’s probably like a huge community thing but I’m pretty sure it’s more of an expression of self. Push comes to shove who am I? I’m nothing, I’m human, but in that I’m perfect and I am beautiful and I am… I chime in and say “happy” and Krysta replies “I am. But I am joyful, is actually what I am. And I think there’s a difference; I really do think there’s a difference. Because I can be happy for a moment and in that same moment I can be sad, but what I find beautiful about happy and sad is that I can be joyful even when I’m happy, when I’m sad, when I’m angry, when I’m depressed, when I’m lonely, when I’m furious, when I’m sexually frustrated… when I am all of these things I am still joyful because I, I glow. And I love to surround myself with people who do the same. And I think that today, today, yeah happiness. Today was about that. Today really was. And it’s funny because I feel as though joy and happiness and happiness and gratitude are very much the same and I feel that the moment that I feel happy I also feel this huge gratitude. And it’s not the same, I think it’s really just parallel. It’s like sisters, twins, brothers, whatever-the-fuck. They are very much a part of each other. Intertwined.... All the tendrils, all the tendrils”